Five months

I let myself go dad. The girl that always used to care what she looked like,lost herself. I got to the point of only caring if I made it to the next day. It’s been 5 months now since you’ve gone away and it finally hit me. This is my chance . This is my life . I have to be healthy in order to get by. Everyday I wake up to the nightmare that you’re gone. I’ve realized there is nothing I can do about it. Except better my life because of you. You set me up for success. It

just seems so hard to succeed without you . I feel as if my mission is to make you proud. I see you in everything I do. I talk to you as if your sitting right next to me. I hear your response. I know it sounds crazy, but I hear your voice everyday. I hear you laugh at me when I do silly things. I know deep down in my heart you are still here with me. It’s just so hard to fathom that your not physically here. I miss your presence so much. Your beautiful gentle soul. You took such a big piece of me when you left . I don’t know how to stay sane most days ......