“The secret to happiness? Flowing, not forcing.”

Does anybody else feel like they are way behind in life? I always thought I would be married by 25.Maybe even have a child by then. Be In a stable career. In a home , ya know.... adulting. I feel like I’ve been stuck in the same place for the past few years. I refuse to settle down, get married, and have a child. Until, I have a stable career. I’ll never depend on my significant other solely .... hell no. Yeah it may take me another 2-3 years to finish my schooling. Which will roughly put me at 27. That’s ok though.

Everybody around me just seems to be in a rush. A rush to finish life,and all the exciting parts of it. Getting married, having kids... but how special can that truly be , if one is not happy and are just simply settling. Don’t get me wrong , some people find their soulmate at 16, get married at 21, and have their first child by 23. There are Single moms killing it at 24. I see so many people just settling though. I refuse to be one of those people. Even if it means, I don’t have my first child until I’m 35. When the time is right, I will know it. Right now I struggle to take care of myself, how could I ever take care of another human being .

Yes I’ve always loved the comfort of having someone to be with. As everyone always says “ your always jumping from relationship to relationship” most of those people are the biggest hypocrites.

I had so many chances to run off to the court house with my ex fiancé. I actually got all dressed up to go marry him a handful of times.Right before we would go get in the car, my gut told me no. No because it would be the easy way out. So yeah, maybe I’m always in a relationship, but that doesn’t mean I’m not independent. I still have goals. I still focus on MY future. Life is all about balance.

I believe with hard work, and patience, the life I’ve always wanted will be mine.

P.S. thank you dad ♥️